Saturday, December 8, 2007

Small Break

Goodness, I haven't been here in a while! Not sure the cumulative reasons, but life's been busy and I'm under some sort of fatigue. That was not helped by the fact I either had a case of food poisoning or some sort of stomach virus the past week. Green I was :) If the constant nausea doesn't go away, I'll be going to get a pregnancy test (I don't think that's what it is, though...)

Can't seem to get on a good schedule...I've been scheduled to work 12 hour nights, then the job changed. Add to that having a family, trying to sleep during the brightest hours of the day, and then doing a changeroo when one assignment ends and the next kicks in PLUS the fact my boss has me running hither and yon on my off days. Let's just say the house is a mess, my daughter's been eating more cereal than usual, and I have a very patient and understanding husband. And the four basic food groups of the nauseated...pepto bismol, dramamine, immodium, and water.

We're also in a holding pattern to hear back from our contact in our area of interest as goes the land. We've got the ball rolling, but how fast it's rolling here near everyone's holidays has yet to be seen. I've got more to type here about things I've found online, especially about tree fodder, something I found mention of when reading permaculture literature recently. But I can't seem to find the ooomph to do anything more than check mails and sip clear liquids. Sure hope this passes soon! It's too sunny outside for this to be winter malaise. I seldom wish to be younger, but that thought has crossed my mind more than once recently...wondering if age is taking away some of my bounce-back-ability. Hmmm.

Hubby has been doing admirable substitutionary cooking in my absence from the kitchen. Tonight was the first time I could take the smells, even the cooking smells, long enough to make anything. I should have stuck to a clear broth and some steamed veggies, but instead made creamed chicken over biscuits...and steamed veggies. So far so good, as far as keeping it IN the stomach :)

I've reaaaallllllyyyyyyy got to get my nights and days back in sync. I've read a lot of books during those 12 hour work or two full books a night. But I'm even booked out, which I thought was impossible!

Sorry this isnt an interesting post. Documenting life and our process isnt always interesting, I guess. It's Hanukah, and we haven't lit a single candle...I've not decorated...we've set aside a night when we'll have a celebration, but even that is destined to be quiet and smallish this year. I really wanted to do things differently this year. ..don't I say that every year? I'm going to have to get more deliberate, way ahead of time. It's rather liberating not to be in the christmas rush as in past years, though the change still at times seems very radical. It seems radical to NOT be shopping, getting into debt, booking our schedules silly, and cooking for a month ahead of time as in the past. Were I to put in one request for a change in Hanukah, that would be that the music be as awesome and fun as the christmas music that's all of the things I love the most.

We'll form our new traditions as we go, but I feel a bit guilty that I didnt do that this year, no matter what the reason. This time with my daughter and my husband together is really precious, and since she'll likely be moving away in the coming years, I want to make each moment count.

And go clean the dishes and go back to bed.

To sleep, perchance to dream. Perchance to awake feeling ten years younger?? ;-)


Anonymous said...

Hi Robbyn! I've not decorated yet either. I feel like an alien on a strange world! Maybe tomorrow. I hope that you start feeling better soon.

melissa said...

Hope you feel better soon!

farm mom said...

Sorry to hear you're feeling ill. Hope you're doing better.

farmer, vet and feeder of all animals said...

No candles! Where's the spirit! :-D You sound very overworked.
I think I am waiting almost as impatiently as you to find out about your land.
Good luck! and Happy Hanukka!

Robbyn said...

Thank you, Laurie, Melissa, Angie, and Monica! Thankfully, since I wrote that post, my work load dramatically lightened and I'm beginning to feel like my old self. Still haven't gotten around this winter blah/introspection thing all the way, but have celebrated the good stuff anyway :) Nothing bad's happening at all, and there's everything for which to be thankful! Thank you for your means a lot! We still don't know if the illness was food poisoning, which is disturbing because with all the outside places we've eaten, it's hard to narrow down. Here at home, everything's getting a good dose of bleach and vinegar, for sure...which should also clear out any remaining cobwebs from my head as I apply them, heh heh :)